04 April 2006

Sun and Moon Sign



I have a friend-and you know who you are-who has recently gotten me into the whole Sun/Moon sign thing. I always felt that the discription of a Pisces didn't really do me justice, but combining it with my moon sign, Taurus well is more of an acturate discribtion of me. This friend of mine, whenever I talk to her about things concerning people, and how they act or what they say, somethings explians these actions according to these signs, and lately she has been quite accurate when it came to my current relationships-or lack of.
The influence of the Moon sign is subtle, it relates to the personality beneath the surface; your feelings and your subconscious self. It shows how you react to those around you based on the sum of your conditioned viewpoint and unguarded self-projection. The Sun is the core of the individual; the overriding nature and will. Now it begins to be clear why each of the Sun signs can reflect such observable traits and yet still come in so many varieties.

So here is my combination:

Pisces/Taurus
The combination of your Sun sign and your Moon sign produces a personality that is highly sociable, and one that clearly possesses a good bit of social tact. You're a sensitive person, but you likewise have an acute sense of the other person's feelings and sensitivities, and you therefore are a very agreeable person that avoids hurting anyone--that is until you're opposed--and then you can get very stubborn. In other words, you are easy to get along with; you don't impose on people, but you definitely won't allow yourself to be imposed on either. You feel that debts have to be kept even, and even in a social sense, you don't like to feel that you owe anyone. This may be because you are a little bit unsure of yourself, and want to make sure you say and do the right thing. This combination blends the Pisces understanding, sensitivity, and a sense of adaptability, with the practicality and determination of Taurus. The two signs blend well, and are mutually strengthening to one another. This pairing allows coexistence of an easy-going nature, yet one possessing a stability and tenacity of will not often found in the Pisces native. You have a staying power and a control over impulsiveness that allows you to take things in stride, and you seem to have a simple and efficient way of getting things done. Nonetheless, there is apt to be considerable sensitivity in your nature, and surely a great deal of feeling for things and people. This is a combination that very often produces talent in an artistic or musical sense. Both signs are creatively imaginative and suited for a career in the arts. The social attitude of this pairing provides a deep consideration of others that is very beneficial to success in a wide range of endeavors, business and professional.

If you know your Moon sign, then check out this web-page which will give you the combination of both: Astrology: Sun and Moon Combinations. If you want to figure out your Moon Sign first, then go Goddess Astrology, the web-page is a lit of a process, bas worth it in the end.

Conversation about Love

Last night, over a couple of GodFathers, my friends and I philosophized love, these two friends of mine, are very sensible, compared to moi, who is Ms. Water Sign, follow her feelings even if they lead her to the edge of a cliff. Actually that is unfair to them-anyone is sensible when it comes to love in comparison with me-they are just sensible, and I am really grateful to have them in my life-really they keep me grounded-anyho, we were talking about love, and they were saying that one should marry not only because of the butterfly in the stomachs, bas also because it is convenient, as in, you are friends, you get a long, mish only you are passionately in love with each other. For they were saying that this passion goes at some point, and what you are left with is someone that you either care about and can have a conversation with, aw you end up leaving each other. Well this is what my mother always tells me, Lulwa this love that you sing, read and watch movies about is not real, there is no ONE right man/woman for anyone.
I don't believe this, or more to the point I don't want this, I want an all consuming love, I want something that just rocks my world, shakes me to the core, and just makes me fly so high. I know the consequence of something like that, is that I MIGHT, fall flat on my face, I might get my heart broken, and my world that has been rocked might never go back to normal, bas I don't care, I know I will be fine in the end. I am willing to risk all that, just to have those few moments of true bliss, of true joy of seeing the face of the person you love, making them laugh-hey even making them cry sometimes-But that is the kind of love I want, for as the British writer, Thomas Dekker said: O what heaven is love! O what a hell!

03 April 2006

He is sexy!



I know some might find me a bit strange for saying this, but I saw an interview for his guy last night, and I was so wowed...he does not look like a sex god, and he is not thin, or very handsome, but I have fallen MADLY for Philip Seymour Hoffman. I just think he is amazing-not only as an actor which I think we would all agree on, bas as someone who just turns me on! I mean you have to listen to him speak, he is fucking brilliant. I first saw him in Scent of a Woman, bas at that point was swooning over Al, bas I noticed him, and he has stuck in my mind even though I didn't know his name or anything, bas I always ended up watching movies that he was in. I loved him in Magnolia-eventhough I didn't get the movie, bas it had three of my favs, Julian Moore, Tom and of course Philip-I watched Along Came Polly just for him-and he was disgusting in the movie bas I still found him sexy-He was great in The Big Lebowski-which is a brilliant movie dude-and well what can I say, I think he is one of the SEXIST men ever, and I don't care what anyone says. He has been a great number of other movies, some I have seen other not, bat right now I am dying to see Capote, which he won best actor for...and I have heard its an amazing movie! (sorry went a bit wild on links there...ha)

02 April 2006

Bored and ranting

Today I decided that I will not shop at Cosmo anymore. No real reason, just like that...mazaj...prefer Safeway, and I only go to the one in 7th Circle...don't go near the other one at the end of Gardens-nope just the one on 7th circle. When I first got to Amman I would always go to Cosmo, especially when I found they had ham which is something I really miss eating after being in the UK for 10 years. Bas lately, I have decided the safeway is the way to go...I like it's name-the Safe Way to shop, at least that is how I am interpreting it.
Why I am telling you this? Wallah no reason, just felt like it, am sitting at home, bored out of my mind. Went out for a drive in the rain-LOVE THAT-and got my ticket for my trip to Saudi-can't wait, went to Safeway-ha-saw that they had a leak and since we have a leak at home I felt a certain bond with the buckets all over the place.
Feel like I should be doing something, making something, oh got cake mix guess I could do that, bas then my mom will eat it and she is trying to not eat sweets, fa can't do that...hmmm...could drive her to the airport, bas again not really in the mood for that...khara I know since she is my mom and well carried me for 9 months...bas waevar...there is a book signing today...could do that...or cut my hair...do my nails...jump out the window...lol...joke...bored...annoyed...my creative writing teacher used to say that the best way to write something is just to start writing/typing whatever comes to your mind...so am doing that now...bas guess I have to censor some things...ya3ni...not good to let people know to much...then the element of mystery will be well gone! ha My friends hate that ha...I love it...so expressive, can be sarci or a genuine statement of joy...ha...ha...ha...and the (...) love it...can't write my PhD without going through it and making sure that I have not (...) anywhere in it...or written bas instead of but...why is writing written with one t and written with 2...I hate when people call and expect me to know who they are...al its me...who the fuck are you?

Statement

I would like to say that I am one of the most GULLIBLE people to ever walk the earth...this will be proved which ever way the Hassan Ahmad thing turns out. Either if it is an April's fool played on us/me by Play FM or if anonymous turns out to be the idiot playing the joke on me.
You would think with a PhD, and writing it on Hamas and Hizbullah in particular, I would have learned not to take everything at face value, and to take time to think about it. BAS NOOOOOOOO...that just would not work well with Lulwa's Logic...bas since I am lately going through a 'get to know myself better and work on what I don't like' phase, I will add that to the things that needs to be worked on.
Or,
I could be playing a joke on everyone! ha.

They Finally Meet

Two sides of my life met last night, my friends and my Mom. It was strange, I had told my friends that my mama is coming to visit for a few days and that I wanted to take her out for a drink, and if they would like to meet her. Well I was surprised that they were so enthused about meeting my little mama, and well at the same time very happy.
So the meeting took place last night, in Dubliners-right next to Rovers and really much better if you ask me. It went really well, mama is talkative and quite friendly, and my friends were putting the effort, there were some awkward silences, bas 3adi. Well...you know how in movies the lawyers always prep their witnesses before they go on the stand-well I should have done that with both sides.
My friends started the evening off, stating that I am a chain smokers, ya3ni they could have said that I smoke once in a while, social smoker, bas NO...had to go for the "she smokes like a chimney", which mama then said, "oh I thought she quit"!!! What made it all even worse, was the fact that they could all SMOKE while having their drinks, and I had to sit there...watching them...one of them even said "don't worry, Lulwa, we'll smoke a lot so you can inhale some of it!" I was going to strangle him...I had to go to the toilet every once in awhile...to have a ciggie...and again one of them -same dude-said "what do you think she is doing in the toilet for so long?" When I was asked why I am not smoking.
My mom had her own agenda, she went around the table asking people what they work, only to reach me-currently unemployed but working on PhD-and asked me, "and you lulwa?" Laughter all around...the conversation then went on the subjects of how I give up easily, how she bought me a piano, tennis racket and 3oud, bas that I never continue in anything for very long. How I am a drama queen...and well a night of enjoyment for mama and friends who enjoy taking the micky out of me.
Bas I am not complaining, they got on, and that is what is important.

Brilliant?

Yesterday while driving around Amman, I heard the Hassan Ahmad is going to start making his own show on Play FM. It will be the morning show, and I missed it this morning-sniff sniff-fa am hoping with all my heart that some genius recorded it and is going to post it on their blog.
I am not yet sure what to think of this idea on Play, bas I must say that I give credit were credit is due, it is a great marketing idea. I mean even people who didn't like the whole thing that happened after he got his nice-pod, the whole article in JO, and the responses to it, I still think people will tune in and listen to him. I think this is really good for him personally, he is probably going to get paid a bit more then what he was getting before-willa he would not have left his job-and he is getting more then his fair share of the 15 minutes of fame! We will probably start seeing him in places like Nai and Prana, he will be the next Paris Hilton-bas in male form and since I have not seen him I don't know if he is that hot or not bas you get what I mean!
So good luck Hassan, and will tune in bokra for sure!

01 April 2006

Commitment

I know that usually women bitch and moan about how men are commitment phobic, and how they want to settle and the dudes are the ones who are not allowing it. But I have realised that in some cases this is a farce, a show, women finding a scapegoat.
I for one am TERRIFIED of actually settling down, that is why I always go for the wrong guys, the ones who from the start I know will end up breaking my heart, bas I keep doing it because then I can blame them for it not working-they are assholes, gits, wankers...you get the drift. But if a guy likes me, I always end up thinking there is something fundamentally wrong with him, am a true Marxist lover, and then run off. And I did a bit of research, spoke to a few female friends of mine, and came to the conclusion that in a lot of the cases these women are exactly like me.
I have a friend who is smart, funny and quite pretty, and I was asking her last night what was going on in her love life. She told me that is currently just starting a relationship, but that she is mortified of the idea of marriage and wanting to settle. That the guy is she is dating does not live in Amman, and is not Jordanian, that she decided on going down the route of a long distance relationship to avoid the likelihood of anything serious from happening. She ended a FIVE YEAR relationship just because he started to talk about wanting to marry her, and she went for a guy who at the end of five MONTHS broke her heart.
Then I have another female friend, who fancies this dude, and says there is a spark between them, bas because he wants to get married-ASAP-she has backed off, and even though she still fancies him, and gets upset if he chats up other women, she doesn't do anything about it, because-and I hope you are seeing a pattern-she is a commitment phobic!
Fa the next time some woman starts to bitch about how men are assholes because they don't want a girlfriend, to start a relationship, (and there are a lot of these men) remember that its just as likely that she chooses these gits because she does not want to settle, to fall in love, to really give a bit of herself to someone else.