Fumbling Towards Ecstasy

I am turning 28 tomorrow-March 14-I love my even years...they always seem to be better then the odd ones. Have no idea why, maybe it is just a thought I decided when I was younger, and then kind of convinced myself of it, and so now think that it is a fact.
I find that just before one's birthday its the best time for a person to recount what they did and didn't do the year before and to be happy about what they accomplished and to work on what they still wanna do. I find this a better time to do this then lets say New Years...so having looking back on this year, I find I have actually done quite a bit.
I decided to leave the UK and come back to Amman. I found a job, and started making my own money, saw what am amazing feeling it is that first time you go to the cash point and withdraw your first tenner knowing that its not from your parents bas yours...that you worked hard for it. I have met amazing people here in Amman, people that I have grown to really love and enjoy their company. I have also realised that not 'anyone' can or should be allowed into my life, and that its fine to think like that, normal even. I have also found that as I have grown older, I care less and less what people think or say about me, who cares, why bother is what I think. While when I was younger I used to obsess about what people thought, and wanted everyone to like me. As Sarah McLachlen says:
All the fear has left me now
I’m not frightened anymore
It’s my heart that pounds beneath my flesh
It’s my mouth that pushes out this breath
Yet there are things that I still wanna do. My dream is to be the first women (or Arab woman) Secretary-General of United Nations, I thought that I would have done that by now-actually I thought that I would have done that when I was 25. I have just resigned from my job-yesterday-and now am looking for something else to do. I always wanted to bungie jump, I wanna wear a bikini and not hate myself in it. I wanna stop being a worrier-staying up late thinking about things and rethinking about them. Bas what I really really wanna do is to be content with what I have. No not content bas truely happy. I wanna be able to say to myself many years from now that I don't regret anything I did, that if I had to relive my life I would live it the same way. My father always tells me that and it is the one statement that makes me the proudest of him.
I guess I still have a way to go-and thank god for that, how boring would the rest of my life be if I had done everything already-but doing this once a year, is also good for me. To rethink ones life (every aspect of it) every once in awhile I think is very healthy, and very important. That way you never lose track of where you wanna go and what you need to do to get there.