Well more like Run Lulwa Run...I have always been a runner...I never stick it out...try to find out why? How? When?
Today I came to the realisation that I am just not someone who deals. I never have, and after 28 years of this habit-and according to one friend-people never change-don't think I will be changing anytime soon.
So not dealing-when I finished high school in ACS, I hated Amman, had a three months count down, and was soooooo fucking happy when I was on the plane heading to the UK. Then around august of 2005, I realised that I was not happy-so instead of sitting with myself and figuring out why, what does lulwa do? She packs and by mid-september is back in Amman. I was so happy to be back here-in my house, trying to find a job, being with my friends, meeting new people and seeing new places. Bas now, again I find myself unhappy...why?
Wallah I have no idea...so what is my plan? I wanna leave, maybe coming back to Amman was not the right decision, maybe I need to head back to the UK, or even better go to New York...aw start the immigration procedure for Canada...wallahi ma ba3rif...bas one thing is for sure, I don't see myself actually sitting and trying to see why I am unhappy? For me to think that it might be something wrong with me, not the place, would just make me more unhappy...and why do that when I can just pack and leave, sah?
Unfortunately, packing and leaving is only a temporary solution. Eventually, you'll have to deal with whatever it is that has got you down if you want a permanent solution.
ReplyDeleteWhatever you do, don't avoid identifying the problem because you fear that once you identify it, there will be no solution. There is a solution to everything, we just have to look for it.
Being unhappy in Amman is difficult. bloody hell, you're probably not getting laid enough. I regretted the day I came back to this country from Australia. But now things have changed. Think of your friends and family and see where you're doing wrong. Good Luck. Let's meet.
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